It's freaking twelve twenty-seven in the morning right now. I don't want to sleep, I don't want to play, I don't want to do hw, I only want to type. But on the other hand, I don't want to type my essay because that counts as hw. And that is why a blog comes in handy, lol.
I actually don't have anything to talk about right now. It is day till Thanksgiving holiday and I just don't want to go to school tomorrow. You have to understand, I like going to school. I had little to no complaint about school for the last 4 years. It's just that something about tmr that strikes me in a mood to not go to school. To be honest, now I think about it, I now slowly gain a feeling of not going to school(that sentence phrasing is bad, but whatever). For the last month, I have been waiting for school to end from the start of the school day. This habit of mine is causing my grades to drop and I still at the moment can't kill this habit. The origin of this phenomenon of mine started when I over-stressed myself while trying to self-study 2 AP subjects. After that, I just gave up on the whole Ap self-study and convinced myself that it is probably better to just focus on extra-curricular activities that I like. So, I branched off to running, coding, drawing, and learning at the same time. Every day started off with me trying to scrap time off my schedule to do these stuff. The end result is that not only can I not take the ap test at the end of the semester now, I also stressed myself out the second time. And after that, I was a slump all alone, how surprising. I literally hate myself now. And the worse thing about this is that I would probably not learn from this mistake of mine. I keep being lazy and using the period of hard-working time to make an excuse for it. It is a never ending-loop.
Just remember again that I still have an essay to type, so I need to finish this now. Peace, lol.
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